this is what i do at midnight
I can’t sleep anymore, it’s freaking ridiculous.
This is the worst time in the whole year, the last few weeks of summer. I just get the worst feeling, like I have to make the most of it, and then I get so stressed out about having fun that I’m more miserable than I am normally. Plus I’m totally freaking out about my summer reading essay/report things. Actually, I’m kind of just minorly freaking out, but it’s still a bummer. I just can’t seem to find the time to work on it, even though I have tons of free time in which to do it. Seriously.
Regret is a bad feeling too. This is coming across really depressing, but that’s totally just because it’s 12:15 and I’d rather be sleeping. But i can’t.
Really though, I’ve been having a thought–regret is the worst emotion ever. Unless you want to count, like, stress or physical pain. Because when you’re angy, you totally get to blame somebody or something else. And everybody kind of likes to be sad. Well, maybe just mels or something, but at least you get to be the victim, and it’s not your fault. But when you’re regretful, it’s pretty much always your own fault, and there’s nothing you can do about it, because whatever it is has already happened.
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Aww, Becky don’t worry, you’re such a good writer that this essay $H17 could be done in like an hour. You’ve got plenty of time. I agree with you though, regret does suck. That’s another great thing about God though, through him he can help you rise up over you’re regret and overcome it.
If you want help change you’re profile stuff, I can tell you, or show you, It’s pretty easy.
Posted by: justind | August 13th, 2008 16:06
Just move on and do the next thing!
Posted by: kalie.b | August 13th, 2008 16:41
Does getting some exercise help you sleep? It’s sometimes really helpful when stressed to just get out & take a walk & put things in perspective w/the Lord (& be thankful). Poor Becky–I’m glad you wrote this–I can so relate to the things you say.
Posted by: lina | August 19th, 2008 10:30
Haha, that’s hilarious, Becky — really really funny: to get miserable about having fun!! (Guess what temperament she is?)
(PS: Not everybody loves to be sad…only Mels do!)
Thanks for sharing that with me. What a reminder it is…
Posted by: kmcc | September 10th, 2008 15:19